Today

Today, it is rainy.  The candle, it sways back and forth like a boat in the midst of the ocean.  I wish I could be sailing, but I have other matters on my hand.  Things used to be so clear to me.  But now, they are hazier than I thought they would be.  I do not know what trade I will be a part of, but whatever it is I am accepted into, I hope that it is best suited for how I really am as a person.  I have already processed personality tests, and I get the same feedback each time.  I am a part of the merchant class, and am much inwardly drawn.  While this seldom gets me in trouble, it doesn't get me in all the right places I wish I could be.  It holds me back, but it does so fairly.  So I hope that I could have my life returned to me in a constant flow, and not in a fragmented rush of jealous frenzy.